The Devil's in the details

I feel like I am slowly, very slowly, drifting. Drifting on a sea of nothing and nowhere. I want to go somewhere. I want to do something.

I went on a blind date last weekend. Ha! I guess it's just one of those things you've always wanted to do until you actually do it, then you never want to do it again. Funny story I can tell later on in life. Those are always good to have. You can never have too many humorous moments in life. I feel like I don't have enough!

Over the Rhine released a new album yesterday. It is amazing. I don't know what I would do without them in my life. All thanks to a good old friend a long time ago I have a forever favorite band. I only pray I can end up like Karen and her husband. The two sole members of Over the Rhine. A man and his wife in love doing what they love...and they're damn good at it!

I'm ready for a vacation even though I haven't done anything to deserve one. I sure feel like I need one though.

I want to feel close to Him again. I remember feeling like I was dancing with Him once. That was amazing. I'm not much of a dancer...especially a slow dancer, but if it's with Him. Heck, I'd try the waltz! The tango! Whatever, as long as it's with Him. I am jealous of friends who are doing something with their lives in other places in the world. I would be fine with living here if I was doing something that mattered. I suppose even the small things do matter, but I don't feel like I'm even trying. Not that I must do good works in order for my eternity to be spent in paradise, but I should want to do great things becaues I love Him. Why don't I want to do good things enough to actually try? Maybe if I weren't an American. Speaking of which I have to sing the one song I hate singing, the National Anthem, soon at a soccer game. My dream has come true and I am so sick of this country I'm singing for. But what can I do to change it...to pioneer in this country? I do not know and He's not telling me anything.