I am small and needy

When will it ever stop?
There are many things I need to pray about.
Many things I need to set down,
let go of,
give up.
I couldn't tell you I got a raise at work because sometimes I just don't want to talk to you. I know you love me and that does not make me feel better most of the time. Not that human love will ever make anyone feel satisfied.
I've been looking for love in all the wrong places.
I know I need to change.
It takes time, and I'm working on it.
I have reasons for the things I do,
people just don't understand them.
I cannot explain myself.
I'm okay with that.
I am unique and that's the way I was meant to be.
Mysterious and confounding.
I understand me.
He understands me.
That's really all that matters.
As long as I'm doing the Father's will I'll be A-okay.